One of Those Days

Today was one of those days. Generally speaking, a hard day. It did have it's moments of brightness, but definitely the icky rough kind of day that really has no business taking place on a weekend. Someone decided to scream for what will remain un undisclosed period of time last night (hint: it wasn't me or Jim, and I'm not disclosing it for fear that someone will judge me), so sleep was lacking and that never sets a good tone for the rest of the day. And it didn't get much better from there.

There were moments in the wee hours of last, and at various low points today when my son dared to not behave like his sweet darling self (dare I say he was even a brat. In public. Oh the shame!) where I felt like I was well on my way to failure. Part of me wanted to reach out to others and commiserate, but the rest of me wasn't ready for the inevitable advice that is almost sure to come from well meaning friends and acquaintances. That is something else I struggle with. We all do it, heck, I've done it, but WHY is it that EVERYONE feels that it's appropriate to tell you what your child needs/doesn't need/is doing wrong and how what they did is totally right, worked for them, and therefore will for everyone else too? If there's anything I've found to be absolute truth in parenting it is this: no one has a clue. There is evidence backing every claim. So can we all just grow up and admit that we don't know it all? Today was a day where I wasn't ready for those kind of conversations. I just needed someone to tell me that it's ok. Sometimes it's hard. And that even though it was a rotten day, that I am not yet a total and complete failure, even though it was beginning to feel like it. That I still have a long way to go before I hit bottom.

So, with my above rant and likely irrational feelings in mind I turned to the internet, or more specifically lds.org to see if I could find something to ease my troubled and tumultuous heart. And although I have seen it before I found exactly what I needed. I'm posting it below because I know it can and will touch the heart of any mother who has had a hard day.

https://www.lds.org/general-conference/1997/04/because-she-is-a-mother?lang=eng

And I was able to walk away. Someone thinks that I'm doing more than just ok. And at the end of today, that was enough.